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Sunday, 27 December 2009

  • if only

    I'm ready to stop trusting, to stop hoping. It is these two things that always lead me to get hurt.

    I used to trust too easily. I've been more cautious in my trusting. Even those who I trust eventually hurt me. They lie to me. God, I hate being lied to. But everyone lies to me. They say they don't want to hurt me, but it hurts me worse when I find out they're lying. When I trusted someone and they let me down. They always let me down, it never fails.

    Everyone gives me false hope. They give me useless words that I believe and have hope in. I always hope for the best and I always tell myself things are okay. And then people let me down, they show me why I shouldn't have trusted or hoped. It hurts worse to fall when I had my hopes too high. I should just stop. It would hurt less to just let things happen and not hope for anything.

    I just want it to hurt less.

    If only life hurt less.

Saturday, 26 December 2009

  • this is for you

    I don’t remember
    if it was all that
    false hope
    or the thought
    that always lingered
    that told me
    I had to
    take chances
    needed to
    take this chance
    because
    even if I knew
    it couldn’t work
    wouldn't work
    doesn’t work
    I told myself
    I’d make it work
    and maybe I
    never did but
    I tried and I told
    you on a night
    I was feeling brave
    and used a lot
    no more than a lot
    of chapstick
    and my lips
    were still dry
    and this time I
    told myself I’d do it
    because the thought
    of you gone
    was better than
    the thought of
    me too far away
    and never knowing
    what would
    have happened
    because I never
    never ever
    took a chance
    and now I know

    it’s gonna be okay
    I made it okay
    you made it okay
    I’m still not
    sure what you
    really thought
    maybe you
    could tell me
    or maybe not
    but no regrets
    no second thoughts
    just two lost souls
    trying to figure out
    what’s really going on

    maybe I wasn’t
    so brave
    afterall

Thursday, 24 December 2009

  • secure

    adopted inspiration
    borrowed motivation
    caressed your words
    defying all rules of poetry
    enveloping thoughts
    finishing sentences
    grown on
    hills and valleys
    intertwined with
    just the right amount of
    keen words laced with
    lies that I would quietly
    make into truths
    never knowing what I
    overlooked and
    placed into
    quiet pockets of my mind
    reserving thoughts for
    safer people and
    troubled conversation
    under blankets at three am
    velocity rising as we
    wished we could speak the words with
    x’s drawn over them
    you silenced for the last time
    zipping shut your favorite falsities

Wednesday, 23 December 2009

  • perception

    the heater buzzed
    three nights in a row
    as you shivered under blankets
    made of guilt and regret

    and I told myself
    I wouldn’t do it
    but I did
    and I hope you noticed
    because nothing good ever came
    out of you and me
    and all the rest

    and I chewed away
    at nutrigrain bars
    filled with strawberry,
    hope, and optimism
    because I thought maybe
    someone understood

    I used the camera in my mind
    to show you what its like
    to be sad
    but for some reason
    no matter how hard you looked
    you couldn’t see
    the photographs
    and what you couldn’t see
    you couldn’t believe

Monday, 21 December 2009

  • punctuation

    and I hate capital letters
    commas and periods
    and all the things
    that hold me back

    and she looked at me and said
    you can’t write poetry without punctuation

    who made up
    these dumb rules
    anyway

    who said
    it cant be
    just what
    I want it to be

    she said
    there is no meaning

    guess what I think is beautiful
    the way everyone
    who reads it
    makes their own meaning

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